This past Saturday started off lovely. Everyone woke up cheery and happy, Rob and Corinne were off to a weekend of First Aid & CPR training and I was going to enjoy the peace and quiet of the morning.
The day progressed and Rebekah and I were getting ready to go out to pick up a few things because later that evening we were going to have company over for dinner. Before heading out to the store I remembered I needed to do some banking. Onto my online banking I went. To my utter dismay I saw some finances that were not right! I became enraged!! My temper went from 0 to 1000 in about two seconds. Without any hesitation at all, I got on my phone and sent about five text messages to my husband (at his first aid course) and reamed him out over text. Friends, I even used a swear word. Twice. And if five nasty texts messages asking, oh no no no, not asking, assuming that he misplaced, ehhemmm, used the money for no good, I went off on him again. It didn’t take long for him to call me, when in turn I declined his calls. In desperation he tried our daughters phone to get a hold of me. Now let me tell you, I had two other kids home with me that day and they witnessed mom’s temporary insanity once again. Long story short, I got on the phone to yell at him. He said, “Chris, I did not take that money I suggest you call the bank and find out what happened”. My response? “You bet I’m going to call and then we will settle this once and for all”.
I called the bank.
The nice lady over the phone explained to me that a bill payment was made earlier that week from that account. She then proceeded to tell me when and with whose card.
It was mine.
Memory came back to me to the day I made the payment. I realized that as I picked an account to make a payment, I, I picked the wrong account. I USED THE MONEY!!!! As I was still speaking to this woman from the bank whom I do not know from Adam, I started in with my usual, “OH MY GOSH, OH MY GOSH, I MADE A TERRIBLE MISTAKE!!!!” I then said to her, “this is not good, not good at all” She had no clue what on earth I was talking about. Of course not, she’s doesn’t know the crazy that can happen in my head! (hahaha)
As I got off the phone Rebekah looks at me and says, “Mom, before we go anywhere, you need to call dad and apologize” I say, “I don’t want to”. She says, “oh yes, you need to”. With a mouth full of humble pie, I dial Rob’s number. ring, ring, ring. Oh Thank God, no answer, I can just leave a message. I left an apology message.
Oh friends, let me tell you how terrible I felt. I felt so bad. I said things that were horrible. I thought very ill of him. I jumped on board with what I perceived as what happened without asking and not giving him a chance to defend or explain himself.
I must say, Rob is very quick to forgive and let things go. He is also very humble. Unlike me when it comes to him. I put on this suit of armor that not even an atomic bomb could penetrate. He simply said, “I accept your apology and please Chris, talk to me. Ask me before assuming things” He also said, “I understand with my past and I don’t blame you for thinking things like that”.
I guess The Good Lord felt it was time for a lesson in humility for me. What have I learned from this situation? Stop and pray before reacting. Ask questions and TALK about these things. It’s funny because just last week I was chairing a meeting and I shared a bit of where I was at at that moment and I confidently shared how I was able to respond to life rather than react to it. Ha. Ha.
Well my dear friends, that’s all I have for now. I’m going to get back to my humble pie now. Mmmmm. ;)