I have been crucified with Christ. it is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me. Galatians 2:20
Gosh, what does that mean to you?
For me it means that I am learning to live in another way. A way that goes against my way of wanting to live. It means that since I have decided to follow Christ I have given up my ways of behaving and the way I am towards life. It means I learn to love as He loves me. It means for me, to die to myself and start choosing a better way of living.
It’s been a great couple of days but I’ve got this anger creeping up inside me and I want to shout and swear and yell and just freak out.
But I choose not to. I am choosing to give that anger to God and have Him deal with it for me. I have chosen to pray. I have chosen to behave as Jesus asks me to because I have decided and I have chosen to live for Him. It’s ok to feel my anger but it is not ok for me to act on it and lash out because of my pain.
This latest journey hasn’t been easy for me. There have been hard hurting days and there have been wonderful days too.
I will say, I am so grateful for my kids and for the friends I have. I am grateful I am not alone.
I will not ever know why this has happened again but I have come to a place of acceptance.
Tonight, I will put on my pjs, watch a movie with my daughter and trust God has everything under control.
Tomorrow is another day.