100 Huntley Street Interview

Hello there my friends :D

Today was a big day for me and God. I was the featured guest on Canada’s #1 Christian Talk show 100 Huntley Street!!

I gotta tell you, what a beautiful bunch of people I met there today. They were so kind, gentle and so spiritual. It was a wonderful place to be.

I’ll be quick with my writing today as I have added the video interview I had with Moira Brown from 100 Huntley Street this morning.

What I would like to say is, no matter what we have gone through, God can and He will give you a new heart of love and forgiveness and take you places you could only dream of! :)

An amazing thing happened after the show, I met a beautiful young lady who just so happened to be a young mom, and shared a little bit about herself with me. She was able to do so after hearing a little bit of my own story. You see friends, the more we share our life and experiences the more God uses that to help others.  I am so grateful I have chosen to walk with God and use what the enemy intended to destroy me, for good in helping others. Praise You Lord!

To all of you, thank you again for all your support over the past year and a half I’ve been blogging and sharing my life ;)

Thanks for watching ;)


No One Asks For It. Ever!

Heeelllloooo to all my friends and followers!! Today is an important day for me. I get to flash my purple clothing and stand up and speak out against sexual assault!

I hope you all have found a snazzy purple something to wear ;)

I’ve been reflecting on my amazing journey over the years and I am brought to tears at the incredible life God has created for me. Out of such a disastrous mess He has turned it into a beautiful garden of love and forgiveness.

I’ve been feeling convicted this morning to make this blog about my two violators. My two cousins.

To the both of you. Today I reflect on the attacks from the both of you. In the past I never thought I would ever get over what your actions did to me. The trauma, the self hate, the anger, the rage and the poor value of life I had. The torment and horrible memories that haunted me everyday of my life. The loss of my childhood. Today I am here to tell you both what God has restored in my life. I have an amazing family! God has restored to me what your actions stole from me. God has taught me to love, real true love and most important He has given me a heart to forgive both of you. And as you both continue to hide and deny your actions I will continue to pray for you both and your wives and families. You know why? Because that is the kind of woman God has turned me into. I have been able to use what your actions did to me to help other people. I have chosen to take what you both did and use it to glorify what God can do. I have chosen to forgive you both so I may live a life of sheer happiness and FREEDOM. Something you two do not know. I can only hope that you both come to your knees and submit to God and repent of your actions. The incredible freedom and quality of life that comes from that is beyond amazing. I pray for your children. I pray none of them endure the horror of sexual abuse. May God help you because He is the only one who can. And if you ask Him, He will. You see, God loves you both just as much as He loves me and He is a forgiving and loving God. he knows EVERYTHING about us. He knows it all even if you try to continue to deny.

To my beautiful incredible supporters, God bless you in abundance! Thank you for journeying with me through all of this. Thank you for the hugs, love and support. Thank you for still being there. I am so grateful for you all. Those I know personally and those I know only through the amazing social media network. God bless you!! Sending you all a virtual hug :D

Happy day to all of you <3

No One asks for it

Let’s Do It Together!

Well hello there!

Please enjoy this very short video of yours truly ;)

God bless and thank you thank you for your support and for watching :D


Will You Join Me?

pic for may 2


I got this photo from Facebook. It will be the second year that I will participate in this event.

As many of you know, I am a thriving Survivor of childhood sexual abuse. I have willingly done a lot of work to overcome the effects this abuse has had on my life. It has been one heck of a journey. One journey that I would not trade for anything. I have, and am becoming an incredible human being.

I am inviting you to please join me and many others in wearing purple Friday May 2nd in support and awareness of sexual abuse. This abuse must be brought out in the open and we are they only one’s who can help put a stop to this. It is horrific! Friends, no child, no man or woman should ever have to suffer at the hands of another. Sadly in society today, the exploitation of young human beings is accepted. No one stops to think of how they objectify and add to this abuse when they use children, men or women for their viewing pleasure or worse!

Please take a moment to think about this. If you have children, it could easily happen to them.

And friends, let us think of the men and women who are forced into providing services for people’s pleasures. The abuse and torture they endure.

Let us take a stand. Will you stand with me and let people know, we will not tolerate or add to this abuse!

From one Survivor to another, from one human being to another, let us come together and take a stand!

Lets get our purple on! You’ve got plenty of time to find some snazzy outfit ;)

Thanks for your support. Together we are stronger, God bless :D


Insanity: Doing the same thing over and over expecing a different result. 

I beleive Albert Einstein was the one who came up with this so overly used gem.

I’m using it tonight.

That’s all I gotta say today. :/

Happy Birthday Teen Mom To Teens!!

Good day everyone!!

This date one year ago I started my blog and started down one of the hardest paths of my life!! Today looking back over the year I am beyond amazed at my self growth, the new friends, the publishing of my book, the incerdible spiritual growth and for the courage, the COURAGE God gave me to face my childhood sexual abuse and the effects it has had on my life.

I am ecstatic over what God has done in my life, totally, totally ecstatic!! I don’t even know what else to say.

I do want to say I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I thank you all for your support, for your prayers, for following my blog and for your interest and for your hope and encouragement. Had it not been for your interest this blog page would not be where it is today. I am so very grateful. You will never know how much. Bless you and thank you again :)



Ciao for now :)

True Forgiveness

I have witnessed a true act of forgiveness. I am beside myself and my heart sings for joy for what I have witnessed today.

I just got off the phone with my mom.

Let me give you a brief background about a situation that occured in June. (Maybe it was May). As you know, I have survived the childhood sexual abuse I endured as a little, sorry, when I was young, I’m still little now haha. I had made a decision last year to confront my abusers and by the strength of God I did just that. Well friends, when the families of my abusers found out, they, along with my grandma, whom I truly love with all my heart, went over to my parents place and there was much conflict and horrible things said to my mom. My mom asked them to leave her home. After that my mom kept her distance. These family members are from my dad’s side of the family.

Ok so now we are in January and a situation has occureed where my grandma needs a place to live. I have spoken to my mom about this and did not offer my opinion in regards to this issue knowing how hurt my mom was after the incident. My mom felt strongly about what had happened and she refused to “budge” in this issue.

Today my mom called me. She said, “Chris, I have something to tell you” I replied, “what’s up?”. She said, “I’ve decided to have your grandma come live with us here for the next three months”. Friends, let me tell you, I almost broke down in tears, I got chills and felt God move. I was overjoyed to hear the softness and compassion in my mom’s voice and decision to forgive and move forward. I was abe to express to my mom how proud I am of her. I was also able to say that, no matter what others do or how others treat us, we need to give an account for ourselves only with God when the time comes.

The incredible serenity forgiveness brings when we have allowed forgiveness to flow from us to others is indescribable. It brings forth unity, connection, love and peace within ourselves, with God and with others. Our hearts open and “thaw” for love to grow. This does not condone bad behaviour done to us, for me it means that we will no longer allow that behaviour, incident or injustice to rule over us anymore. It means for me, that we will let go and let God fight our battles for us.

I awoke this morning thanking God for His miracles, blessings and favor in this day and look friends, I have been blessed so much to have been able to witness it.

I always love to say and have God fight my battles for me. He knows exactly how to do it. In this case He has demonstrated the incredible POWER of His LOVE today when my mom spoke to my abusers mom and told her of her decision. This my dear dear friends is what God’s love is about. Choosing to love when it’s hard and hurtful.

I’m so amazed at this heart transformation in my mom. I truly believe these transformations can only come from God.


Here’s to a more than fabulous day! Ching ching :D

Happy Happy New Year! Happy Happy day!

Well hello there! I hope the New Year came in with much more goodness you anticipated :)

So a new year eh? You got any plans for it? Any hopes or dreams? Do we need a new year to hope or dream? I don’t think so but, I guess for some it’s needed  to help start the process :)

Friends, over the past year I went down some roads I never thought possible. I faced the worst demons in my life and through it, God has grown me up ;)

Last year I started this blog. I finished my book (which I will reveal before next week, So super excited, I cannot wait to show it to you all!!!!!), I confronted both of my abusers and proudly held my head up high and gave up all shame that was keeping me from my best. I walked through marital challenges to come out on the other side with more growth in Jesus’ love for me, my husband and our marriage.  My relationships with my kids have grown so much and most of all, I have grown so much more closer to God.  I have gained good friends through my trials and have come to such an understanding of myself. Through God, I have learned to love myself. It’s amazing when you love yourself how you are able to loveand care for others :D

So after last year, what I hoping for for this year is, for my testimony to reach other hurting people and help them, to reach other Survivors out there and show them there is so much more to life than what the effects of abuse have left behind, most of all friends, I want to show Jesus. I want to show others how good and amazing and wonderful this God I follow is and what He has done for me :D

These are my hopes. What God has to say about it… We will find out as time goes on.
I pray this year is all and more, than you can ever hope or imagine :)

And on that note, I’m going to finish up because my dog needs to go outside and refuses to go out with any one other than me. Sheesh.

Ciao for now :D


How Grateful I Am For What I Did Not Endure.

Good day my friends.

Although I do not like to discuss my past abuse too often anymore, or get into any detail, I am writing this morning after reading through a few blog posts I follow and I am sitting here giving thanks to God for sparing me as He did from abuse that could have been far worse. I know it sounds weird to put forms of abuse on a “scale” however this morning I am beside myself giving thanks. I have heard and I have read from fellow survivors what they had encountered and for some reason today I am feeling it deep within my heart. I can say, with the sexual abuse I did endure, I was also spared from what could have been. It is said many times, God gives you only enough of what you can handle. Yes I believe that and when I speak with my fellow survivor friends, I am encouraged that I can continue to move forward and heal.

Well now, I guess what I want to say is, to all my amazing, beautiful, courageous, strong, survivor friends out there; First, I am so sorry for what you, we, went through. The pain, hurt and the loss we have endured.  God bless you all for sharing your story, for pushing forward, for choosing goodness for your life and for just being you!  I am truly blessed to know you. Some days suck and some days are beyond magical. This is our life, we choose how we will make the rest of it go. Today let us hold tight together and to God and choose to be the awesome people we are!

Sending you all (with your permission) a BIG hug :)

And to you my fellow readers, a BIG hug to you as well :D

God bless

P.S. – did you know that today is an amazing day???? Yup, yup it is ;)